June 26, 2023

I have my alarms switched to my Alexa device in the morning.  This is an effort to get my reliance on my phone delegated to something that does not require that I interact with my phone.   I have also begun putting my phone on airplane mode, to remove aspects of what is going on which does help.  I am sleeping better doing this.

I would like to get to the point where I am not utilizing my phone as a distraction in any way other than what I need it for in that moment.

This morning I spent more than an hour on it looking through Instagram.  I think this is in large part that I was taught to 'escape' my circumstances by either going into my imagination or looking for a distraction.  As time went on, we got this nice box thing that we can look at all day, and be distracted about what is going on in a reality not our own, but part of our reality non the less because it's something we have access to.

I got frustrated with myself, and uninstalled Instagram, and then did a morning meditation. 

My eventual focus was what do I could I do to improve my life and change my world for my highest good.

My body needs some love, and also myself.  I remember how active I was when I was younger and also when I lived outside of the cities.

I know or have experience of what makes my body happy.  But always seem to drop off that particular wagon and go for comfort instead of improvement.

One of the reasons I wanted to take the Psychic classes again, was I wanted the opportunity to work with others in these classes.  However, the other people at this time are not in the time that they feel that they can commit to these classes.  I also realize that I am not really ready or feeling that I want to continue classes with my circle, because I ultimately do not fully trust my High Priestess, nor do I believe that I will be in this location long enough to complete the training. My High Priest was the main reason that I was in this circle, and he has passed. 

I'm not to the point that I'm willing to voice this choice.  It's there in my mind and heart.   But I'm procrastinating on the execution of that outcome.  Which will inevitably come up when my High Priestess realizes that I have started classes there, where I have sought to start classes with her.

Daily Intention: 06/26/2023

Last night before I went to bed, my intention was not to do any shopping today. Not to go to the grocery, not to go to Target, not to buy anything online. Not to look to be BUSY, but to take a day just for me.

When I got distracted and jumped down rabbit holes in abundance this morning, I realized that I need to be a bit proactive about this.

I've done the miracle morning before and it worked for a while, then I took a day off, that turned into another day off, and well here we are. I've done a lot of things in the past that helped, but then I would choose comfort or take a break that turned into a hiatus.

There are aspects of the Miracle Morning I still work at keeping part of my life like the mediation or journaling.

I get so distracted about the many options that I can use to improve my life that I just go the hell with it and walk away.

I also know it has to do with recognition.  When people start noticing that I'm making changes they are either for or against it.  Or they don't support or do support it.  Positive and Negative encouragement act the same way in my mind.

Meh...

I've been on the fence about renewing my Massage certification. In large part because of the direction I see my practice going and the direction I see massage going are in two different directions. Is it there yet? no. But I can see it.

So I'm not surprised when I drew this card this morning.

( Treat Your Body Well )

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I did a couple things today that were more of treating myself well, as well as not looking at too many distractions.  I went for a walk.  I donated books.  I tried to ride my bike.  It needs air, and there's a wobble in my handle bars.  I don't have the tools for that.  So I'm going to hit up my cousin who used to do that for a job before his Polaris job. 

I work at working with people I know for things that have shown good work in the past.  I like working with people I trust to do the work.  Because I know they aren't going to fuck me over later.