Good Evening: May 2, 2022
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medusahealingThis morning I listen to the Leo King in his weekly address. In his intuitive reading he has stated to allow the flow. To flow into the movement but also to flow into the things that need to be done. And it reminded me of Lomi Lomi and the fact that it is a flowing massage. That you are to flow like water or energy. And that is much easier in the flow of things in the body.
But also not to fear this flow of change. Not to think so much of all the things that need to be done, causing worrying fear, because to do this would restrict the flow. That the expectation of what was coming would cause some problems with the flow of what the universe was sending. This has come up with a lot in my intuitive readings as well, and the guidance that is channeled through for both of us.
Then I also drew The Traveler. Which is moving in a new direction. Yesterday I realized what I wanted in a partner. And it was pretty much everything Galen was not. But also realizing that I want to be the same thing to a partner. One of the things that I recall from Jeff is that he pleasured me. It was the first time ever that a man pleasured me before he pleasured himself. And I didn't understand why I didn't want to see his Parts with my parts, until several years after the relationship. I realized that the reason I didn't want to see his Parts, is because every guy that I have dated always pleasured himself before I was pleasured. And I didn't want to repeat the experience.
Yesterday I did a tapping meditation for my apathy. Today I realized it's not only apathy but also fear. I feel it in my tissues. It's all down my upper arm, that's a juncture of my wrist. It started in my back at my shoulder on the medial edge of the scapula oh, and it lowered to my lower back on the right side of my torso. During the meditation it also went further up toward the serratus anterior and out towards the medial edge of my upper arm. While I stay in the station isn't as acute as it first started, I can still feel it there. It kind of feels stuck. Like there's a band around my arm, holding a shield. The Shield of apathy, rooted in fear.
I did another round of tapping this evening on the same thing, only this time adding fear to the apathy. What I believe I did was in fear I raised a shield of apathy, that way my emotional landscape wouldn't be overran, and I wouldn't be harmed by those that wished me harm.
I love doing the EFT tapping, because doing it helps me talk and walk through things, but it also sometimes takes a life of its own. Where we start one way, and we end a different way, and sometimes longer than the actual meditation takes place. Because the meditation itself allows me to actually understand what the fuck is going on. And then I can tap on it as many times as I need to to allow that emotional landscape to clear.
Not only does it clear on an emotional level but it also clears on the physical level.
I'm realizing that I am doing too much. This has come up before as well, where in a partnership I do more than what is necessary.
When I was working through the meditation, I realize that I am holding that shield on my own and I don't have to.
I feel that this is an awesome direction to go. Because it makes me feel more alive, and it also allows me to heal wounds that I have held for a long time. To allow that pain to go. I don't have to hold it anymore. I can allow it to flow.
All through the meditation, I was yawning. There were no burps. It was the release of the energy. Which is always fascinating to have that release of energy. And emotion. It means things are working. It's always fascinating to observe.
Traveller: Move in a New Direction.
Welcome any opportunities to travel, either to the outer world or to your inner world.
The road you are on my be the road less traveled, but this journey is going to be highly beneficial for your emotional and spiritual growth. If it isn't about covering outer distance, it's about covering distance within, and you will be evolving every single moment of it. Remember to keep things simple and lighten your load, because that will make your journey more enjoyable. You are also being encouraged to see how far you have come and how you have really grown as a person, because this recognition will support you in going even further. And there's a good chance that along the way you'll make new friends who will become companions for a lifetime.
But also not to fear this flow of change. Not to think so much of all the things that need to be done, causing worrying fear, because to do this would restrict the flow. That the expectation of what was coming would cause some problems with the flow of what the universe was sending. This has come up with a lot in my intuitive readings as well, and the guidance that is channeled through for both of us.
Then I also drew The Traveler. Which is moving in a new direction. Yesterday I realized what I wanted in a partner. And it was pretty much everything Galen was not. But also realizing that I want to be the same thing to a partner. One of the things that I recall from Jeff is that he pleasured me. It was the first time ever that a man pleasured me before he pleasured himself. And I didn't understand why I didn't want to see his Parts with my parts, until several years after the relationship. I realized that the reason I didn't want to see his Parts, is because every guy that I have dated always pleasured himself before I was pleasured. And I didn't want to repeat the experience.
Yesterday I did a tapping meditation for my apathy. Today I realized it's not only apathy but also fear. I feel it in my tissues. It's all down my upper arm, that's a juncture of my wrist. It started in my back at my shoulder on the medial edge of the scapula oh, and it lowered to my lower back on the right side of my torso. During the meditation it also went further up toward the serratus anterior and out towards the medial edge of my upper arm. While I stay in the station isn't as acute as it first started, I can still feel it there. It kind of feels stuck. Like there's a band around my arm, holding a shield. The Shield of apathy, rooted in fear.
I did another round of tapping this evening on the same thing, only this time adding fear to the apathy. What I believe I did was in fear I raised a shield of apathy, that way my emotional landscape wouldn't be overran, and I wouldn't be harmed by those that wished me harm.
I love doing the EFT tapping, because doing it helps me talk and walk through things, but it also sometimes takes a life of its own. Where we start one way, and we end a different way, and sometimes longer than the actual meditation takes place. Because the meditation itself allows me to actually understand what the fuck is going on. And then I can tap on it as many times as I need to to allow that emotional landscape to clear.
Not only does it clear on an emotional level but it also clears on the physical level.
I'm realizing that I am doing too much. This has come up before as well, where in a partnership I do more than what is necessary.
When I was working through the meditation, I realize that I am holding that shield on my own and I don't have to.
I feel that this is an awesome direction to go. Because it makes me feel more alive, and it also allows me to heal wounds that I have held for a long time. To allow that pain to go. I don't have to hold it anymore. I can allow it to flow.
All through the meditation, I was yawning. There were no burps. It was the release of the energy. Which is always fascinating to have that release of energy. And emotion. It means things are working. It's always fascinating to observe.
Traveller: Move in a New Direction.
Welcome any opportunities to travel, either to the outer world or to your inner world.
The road you are on my be the road less traveled, but this journey is going to be highly beneficial for your emotional and spiritual growth. If it isn't about covering outer distance, it's about covering distance within, and you will be evolving every single moment of it. Remember to keep things simple and lighten your load, because that will make your journey more enjoyable. You are also being encouraged to see how far you have come and how you have really grown as a person, because this recognition will support you in going even further. And there's a good chance that along the way you'll make new friends who will become companions for a lifetime.
